What is this asking for so little? From where does it come?
Instead of embracing our desires, goals and wishes, we make denial and desirelessness holy and sacred, believing we are purifying ourselves for some deity or ideology, or some imagined / preferred state of balance and perfection…and making religions out of them.
We assume something is ‘wrong’ or ‘inferior’ about us. If we could just ‘fix’ this or that element, then we could live.
We do this and thus stop at the Gate of Adventure, the Gate of the Unknown, desperately scrying for safety, security and whether what we want and what we dream is ‘right’.
We are afraid to fail, or be seen to fail.
We believe: “If it’s meant to be, it will be. It will hit me over the head and I will know. I will be sure. I will be safe. Nothing bad will happen.”
Forgetting that: our time here is finite and that we cannot stop the inevitability of when we will no longer be here.
Forgetting that: LIFE is the making of ‘a something or other’ out of the dreams we have been dreaming. Always about free will and agency, and how without our autonomous, co-creative engagement, nothing is invented, birthed, manifested, seen, heard, shared, and recorded for all time and all beings.
Choose, rather: to celebrate ‘failure’ so as to transcend fearful, cringing, status quo versions of ‘failure’ and ‘success’. They are irrelevant.
Why do we make denial, desirelessness and constant fixing holy and sacred?
Why do we stop at the Gate of the Unknown Adventure and turn back?
My opinion is that you forgot your profoundly unique place in the Universe and how we are all the poorer for it.